Name's Amanda. I live in a SMALL town in North Carolina. It gets pretty boring so I either write, draw, paint, or do something creative. It's how I cope. :0) <-----Clown Smiley
Favourite Visual Artist
Tim Burton
Favourite Movies
Hmmm.... Mainly horror or something with a dark twist
Favourite TV Shows
♥DOCTOR WHO!♥
Favourite Bands / Musical Artists
Emilie Autumn, ICP, Cradle of Filth, HIM, Rob Zombie, Murderdolls, Wednsday 13, So many more :)
Favourite Books
I don't have a favorite. So many good books out there
Favourite Writers
H.P. Lovecraft and Edgar Allan Poe
Favourite Games
I don't play too many games but I want to get in to D&D
Smiles plastered onto fake faces.
Name brand clothes and newlt done hair as far as the eye can see.
Women laughing empty laughs.
They all claim to be different
But they are far from unique
cookie cutter make up
long arcilic nails
They try to find beauty in their fashion magazines
trying to find self-esteem in others stares
they think they are perfect
beauty queens without flaws
we can see them
past their destigner clothes and silicone breasts
to their shattered blackened heart
they try to cover their tear stained cheeks with liquid foundation and cover girl blush
perfect is unreachable
yet they cut and mold their bodies to fit
if i could go back in time
i would change it all
i'd start at day one
when i was just a baby girl
i'd make him care
i'd make my daddy want me
more than he wanted air
i'd convince him to get off drugs
i'd show him how good i could be
if he would have helped me collect bugsi'd try and id try
to be the best little girl
so i wouldnt make my mama cry
i'd beg my dady not to kill that man
and think of me instead
i would have told him to try as hard as he can
to bring himself to love me
and hold me and tell me its alright
id tell him just to try and be the best father he could be
maybe if i told him all of this
i would have grew u
I wish i was pretty.
I wish i was smart.
I wish inside i wasn't torn apart.
I wish i could just get over all the negative
I wish i was free
I wish i was happy with being me
I wish i never did the things that i've done
I wish my relapses were spaced out a little more
I wish i didn't feel like i'm rotting to the core
I just wish I can get over all these wishes.